.xXx. Time's up .xXx.

[ღRedwoodღ]

<sup>.xXx. A healed Scar .xXx.

Red optics scanned the grassy plain. A smile on his kissers, he breathed a scent he missed, the smell of the redwood trees, the sweet of the grass, and the feel of home. He Snorted, shaking his head. His insides burned within him, he was home. His banner trickled a many whipped flow. He Reared, excitement heating his insides.

Pillars flexed out pridefully, and fell to the earth, daggers booming. He Threw forward, limbs hitting the earth melodically in turn, an slightly faster beat than the average horse, but no beat for a racehorse. He'd been gone fro mthe track too long, and he could care less.

He Threw hi head up and down with excitement, he could meet up with everyone, Iris, Toff, Midnight, Whitewo-Whitewolf... He thought, stopping in his gallop. His gut wretched, like metal sing together. His heart pounded in his chest.

"She... probably hates me..." he thought. His thoughts had wondered to her the whole time he was gone, trying to release himself from what his past brought him. She definately hated him! If he were in her position, she'd hate him... She might've even found someone better for her... someone she deserved, and not just a stupid jerk of a horse. He needed to find her... And talk to her. He began galloping around the area, trying to find her, and decided after looking everywhere here, he'd check the next area.

.xXx. Yet Still a memory of it .xXx.

Ooc// yeah it's sucky, but I am getting back on him^^ I am excited!!</sup>

[Apollo]

.:X:. They never notice me .:X:.

The Morning was blissful, the sun was allowing the lands to bathe in it's bright rays, and the clouds sheltered those that wished not to be baked by the colossal sun. Flowers were in full bloom, tulips to roses on the bushes, everything was green and living. No more snow caked the lands, except for the small amounts that frosted the faraway mountain tops. The woods seemed to be in a absurd peace, everything was quiet and the air seemed content to lay about easily. Yet the woods held a dark secret, that only a few experienced. And even fewer remain to smile ever again.

The colorless vixen topped with a lowly stride, much slower than the average walk. As she came from under the tree's caressing branches, the bright sun hit her with everything it had. The bright glaze blinded her, and she arched her small crown back toward the forest. The silent swaying of their leaves calling her back to the darkness. She wanted so much to go back into the darkness, away from the light. She wanted to seclude herself again, let herself be alone. Yet, she didn't want to be alone.

Turing her delicate tiara back toward the roaming hills, she let out a deep sigh. It died into silence almost as soon as it escaped her, yet it managed to live a few moments onward, before being crushed by the air. Silven optics glanced down toward the Grassy Hills. How many memories did this place return? So many. Where she had finally re-encounterer her brother, discovered the Redwoods, well was brought to them. Met Allura and so many other horses. Yet a knife-streaking memory made her optics well with tears.

Bear.

Clenching her teeth tightly together, she rested her gaze toward the ground. The grass waved gently with the small breeze, letting the small amounts of dust and dirt whirl around them. Soon though, the odd dance was interrupted with a small drop of liquid. Was it raining? No, a single tear had fallen. Averting her gaze, she let the tears retreat into her optics, and to let the fallen tear evaporate into just a memory. As soon as the painful memories and feelings were gone, she studied the land once more.

Off in the distance she saw a pair of horses, a mare and stallion at that. Her optics lowered, glancing at a small chestnut colt that was prancing around an azul hued butterfly. A small smile rose to her kissers, yet it fell to a heart-wrenching sob. Why? Why had Bear left? Why had she been to slow to follow him? Why? The question rung around in her cranium, pin-balling around her thoughts.

Her breath labored, she managed to silence the voice within her head. Tossing her crania, more of a movement to relax herself, she moved off toward the hills and way from the crest.

Her pillars stretched out into the silent grasses, her dainty hooves not making a noise. Even with this small movement, the muscles beneath her tightly stretched coat rippled. Her paperthins were flared wide, taking in the scents of the place of her memories. Her audibles were pricked to a pinpoint, flicking to catch the voices of the family to her right. She had forgotten about them.

Yet they never noticed her and left swiftly afterward. Was she that small? That invisible? She clenched her teeth once more, turning away from the disappearing form of the family. She looked down at her chest. It hurt so much, not physically, but emotionally. And that was likely to be the most terrible torture, pain, and suffering.

Could no one see that bleeding heart?

Lowering her boa even lower, her muzzle rested on her shoulder. And like a bullet fire, the tears began to fall. They fell slowly, not rapidly. And each seemed to rip the heart deeper and deeper. And within her she had no needle and string, nothing to sew it up with. Nothing.

With another meek sob, her pillars seemed to grow weak and pained. With a hollow 'thump' her bod fell toward the ground, dust rising around her form and entering her respiratory system, with caused her to cough lightly. She rested her crania on top of her shoulder, the tears sliding off of her crown and onto her slender withers. Then finally with a stretch of speed they died falling toward the ground. With the sun hot on her back, the small paw-shaped marking glistened, seemingly to cry itself, yet that could never happen.

Did anyone know how long she had searched with breaking hope?

.:X:. They'll never notice me .:X:.

[ღRedwoodღ]

<sup>Bear's cranium fell low. His legs were soaked up to his stomache with dew from the long grass. His optics glued to the ground as he paces slowly at a trot now. His breath was fast and short from the run. He finally reached a small river, barely moving down the side of a very small hill. He Looked at a small ditch, were some of the water pooled. He lowered his maw into the icy liquid. He needed the energy to look in the next area.

He lifted his cap upward, looking to see a mother and foal. It made him miss WhiteWolf even more, even though it was impossible. His eyes traveled the area. He'd gone everywhere, but somehow he just KNEW she was there... But he found his insincts were very often found wrong... He turned and began walking on.

His optics were caught to the earth, but lifted as an odd color came into veiw - White. He raised his Cranium to see a Beautiful Colorless fae, he recognized immediately. His optics flooded as he stood there.

White Wolf.

He wanted to say something, but lyrics escaped him. His kissers remained split, trying to say something, till finally he said,

"I-I... Whi-I Sorry, I miss-"

He struggled to say, but still found himself talking in words he couldn't understand. His heart pounded, Hot and fast like he had just seen a ghost. His eyes were wide and flooding his crimson stain.</sup>

[Apollo]

A voice? Crown lifted to peer a few yards away from her fallen bod, though as her silven optics form the shape of one she knew all to well, she couldn't help but question them. Her audits shifted back, resting against the top of her skull. Clenching her teeth, she struggled to get off of the ground. Finding her footing, she stood up, her right side caked with a thin layer of dirt.

"Bear?"

She spoke softly, her voice barely above a audible whisper, though as her tear-filled optics moved over his bod, she knew the one worded question was answered. And one though came to mind. Why?

Clenching her teeth, she felt the tears begin to run hot once more, tossing her crown, her audits tightened into a harder hold atop her skull.

"Why? Why did you leave me? Why didn't you tell me where you were going? Why didn't you come back? Did you not think I would look for you? Bear, I searched everywhere for you and all you can come back and say is your sorry? Bear I'm really starting to wonder, if I was foolish even to trust a horse like You"

She spoke softly, not scolding but it was more filled of pain than hate; more sadness than anger. Really she was just in confusion? Why did her heart burn hot, instead of quickly beating like before?

Had Love Been Over Run By Hate?

[ღRedwoodღ]

.xXx. if you hater me, I'll walk away, no matter how much it hurts... .xXx.


Bear's eye began flooding. Why did he leave?? he even questioned himself. But somehow each time he'd try to come home, he couldn't. Alone, being pushed away. But he should've tried harder for the one he loved, he now wished he was gone. "Why? Why did you leave me? Why didn't you tell me where you were going? Why didn't you come back? Did you not think I would look for you? Bear, I searched everywhere for you and all you can come back and say is your sorry? Bear I'm really starting to wonder, if I was foolish even to trust a horse like You"

Each sentance hit him hard, like a horse kicking him in the face. He was a lifeless horse... And the Very end, he felt like dieing. His face was now wetting with tears. Each question he didn't know how to respond. He felt sick to his stomache. He stood there for the seconds, wishing he could just run up and hug her, but he couldn't. He wanted to apologies, but he knew that wasn't enough. He lost all trust, and her love, and he'd lost himself... as if he'd ever found it.

He Closed his eyes, his body shaking slightly. He didn't know how to respond. Sorry? He told her he was sorry? He would've beaten himself up... He wanted to know what to say but there was nothing to be said without sounding stupid. He knew she was about to leave. She hated him, and he didn't know what to think. He didn't hate her. He loved her desperately... He couldn't think what it'd be like without her love, but he already knew. It was that horse that walked outside of home, trying to come back, or the one on the race track, desperate for freedom... but without evercoming back...

"I am Sorry that I left, I am sorry I am wrong, I am sorry that this is all I can say. I can't tell you how much I regret... I am sorry I left without tell you, and so suddenly, and I beg forgiveness, though I know I don't deserve it. And I am sorry I have givin you nothing but grief, and I beg that if there is anyway of showing how much I regret that you'd tell me. I love you desperately, and I cannot tell you what I'd do without you. And I know you will walk away, but I will always love you. And I cannot tell you how sorry I am.

Tears streamed down his face. As he talked, his voice was ough, but quiet and soft. He Didn't know what to say, he just blurted out. His heart Pounded so hard it almost sufficated him. He didn't want to hear what he knew he'd hear. His legs were getting weak, and he felt like he was going to fall, but he stayed up, wishing he was in a dream, and he'd never ran away.



.xXx. But no matter what, my heart will always return to you .xXx.

Ooc// You've now seen bear very very desperate >.< Lol^^